Introduction

i'll just start out by stating some basic facts of where things stand today, and will work back from there. As an introductory post, this will be pretty long and introspective. Future posts will of course be lighter and more focused on some of the day-to-day experiences.

i'm a married, submissive, heterosexual male with a variety of fetishes. i am owned by my gorgeous Wife of many years (Goddess D), AND Princess Sheridan, a beautiful and intelligent Domme i've only recently become acquainted with, but has been integral in turning our world upside down in an amazing way over the past month. This all started when i was left to my own devices one weekend and i decided to order a custom clip from Princess Sheridan (one of several explorations that weekend into all that the world of online kink has to offer). The subject of the clip did take my real-life happenings with Goddess D into account. i ordered the clip, engaged in some light interaction with Princess Sheridan on Twitter, and once She realized this was real and not just my made up fantasy, She encouraged me to get my Wife directly involved, with a perhaps future goal of a custom clip to be made for my Wife to see before i'm allowed to see the clip. That clip is in the works as we speak. my Wife seems to know all about the planned format and contents of the clip, but i know nothing. Just even knowing that Goddess D and Princess Sheridan are interacting privately on a regular basis is enough to drive me crazy. This all got very real, very quickly.

So big picture, how did i get to this amazing place? Honestly, i needed to be more open with Goddess D. It was no easy task, though in hindsight i could have made it easier. This is something that has taken years. At the start of a relationship, short of some insane level of compatibility in the bedroom, interaction is pretty vanilla. When we met, Goddess D probably didn't even realize most of my fetishes existed. We were good people who liked each other on a base level, so that probably wasn't the best time for me to just come right out and tell Her that i'd love it if She tied me to the bed and sat on my face. i won't even get into some of the crazier stuff. That alone may have been enough to spook Her at the time. So i'll stand by my decision to not divulge too much right off the bat.

Over time though, those walls need to come down. Societal norms make that a difficult task. Most of us have been brought up in a manner that stigmatizes certain parts of life, sex being one of the most common. The principles we're raised on are often based in religion. They may simply be old-fashioned long-standing beliefs that have been passed down for generations. Most people who provide these teachings mean well, but it's taken me years to develop my own viewpoints on the world and to have the courage to reject a lot of the viewpoints that have been forced on me since childhood. Much of that comes from interacting with people from all walks of life, encountering multiple perspectives and just not living in a bubble. i want to experience great things in life, and not just float along doing what society considers normal. We get one chance, right? There's no time to waste. There are far too many great people to meet and amazing experiences to have and truly not enough time for it all. It all starts with accepting exactly who you are, what turns you on, and refusing to be ashamed of it.

It took a while, but eventually i had no problem being open enough with my Wife to share my fetishes with Her. i believe many people take that step, actually. This is where the greatest challenge comes in. How likely is it that one's partner is going to just be able to snap their fingers and be into all of those same things? What if one person reaches this level of openness, but their partner's inclination is to reject all of it based on traditional values or just simply because it makes them uncomfortable?

Fortunately in my case, my Wife accepted me and all of my interests, but at the same time, diving into those things in the bedroom was easier said than done at first. She had to get Her feet wet and really learn to explore a lot of these subjects for Herself. This was new to Her and initially not as much of a priority in Her life, while admittedly most of these fetishes have consumed me since my teenage years. i've been scratching this itch by browsing internet content for years and years. It would be unreasonable and unfair to expect my Wife (or past girlfriends, prior to meeting my Wife) to just cater to me in that manner. It can be a burden for Her, through no fault of either one of us. i'm happy to say that we've evolved to a point now where i truly am owned. Goddess D now embraces and genuinely enjoys this role, now that She is more knowledgeable and comfortable with it. Our relationship is now so much more intense, as She realizes the extent of her power and the impact Her actions have on me.

The breakthrough? Finally being open enough to not only share my interests, but how often i indulge those interests and how. The sex industry has been around forever, and it thrives. And it should! How much of that activity involves married men and how much of it is shared with their spouses? i'd venture to guess a tiny fraction of a percent. How many husbands order video clips indulging their fetishes online, and then just share them with their Wives? Doing this can elicit a wide range of emotions. It carries an initial shock that can be downright destructive to the relationship if not disclosed with caution, so we really shouldn't be surprised that so much is kept private. Generally speaking most men are wired a certain way when it comes to their attitudes about sex, and Women are simply on a different wavelength. Again, it's really nobody's fault, so any feelings of shame on the side of the men should stop right there. This is all so very normal, and it's not easy to bridge that gap.  All that said, which relationship is healthier? One in which a man is unable to share his activities with his Wife, represses his desires and acts independently to address them? Or one in which a man is able to get on the same page with his Wife, be completely honest about who he is and come to an understanding and acceptance with Her?

There's a time and a place to initiate such discussions. Being honest doesn't always mean disclosing every piece of information the moment it happens. i've certainly screwed up that timing a few times. Sometimes, there's no great time, but it's still best to show some courage at the best possible time and just get it out there. At this point, finally, Goddess D now knows the full scale of my sex drive. She knows that i've ordered custom clips, interacted with Dommes online, dabbled in online chats on webcam, and has long known that my attraction for beautiful dominant Women will never disappear. The details were the missing piece. Up until this past week She didn't even know, for example, that i have a Twitter account catering specifically to these fetishes. She now knows, for the first time ever, that if i'm home alone on some particular day with nothing to do, it's a near certainty that i will be a total hornball on the internet, not limited to looking at pictures and videos but also by interacting with people. That was a shock to Her at first, no doubt. But after talking it out, She understands exactly why i do these things. i can assure you, it's not to find another Wife! As of this post Goddess D has had me in chastity for 45 days. What i do on the internet when She's away is only helping Her cause and driving me deeper into submission to Her. The majority of the time at this point, it amuses Her! Like any marriage, there are occasional bumps in the road. One of us can have a bad day. Outside stresses can get in the way. But for the most part, we're in a very healthy place in this department.

Her ultimate conclusion after a ton of back and forth? i'm the same person i've always been. We're just more connected. She gets even more attention now than ever before. Sex is sex. Love is love. Of course there always have to be some boundaries, but we're each approaching everything with such open-minded viewpoints that almost anything can at least be discussed. We're closer than ever. Now She has many new ways to dominate me, and so many more resources for doing so. The very Women i used to hide from Goddess D, are now either directly or indirectly, teaching Her! Often, Goddess D will pick something up from fetish clips i've bought over the years (which she really enjoys now, fortunately for me).

In the most recent twist, Princess Sheridan is directly responsible for taking this to another level. All of a sudden, i'm now owned by both Princess Sheridan and Goddess D. In the past week i've literally had that written on my body right above my locked away cock and posted on Twitter. In that same week Goddess D has developed Her own account which She's using to torment me daily, all with Princess Sheridan right at Her side, providing feedback for Her and even taking the time out of Her day to edit some of Goddess D's pictures for posting on Twitter. It's like i'm living in a crazy, amazing dream. i'm grateful for Goddess D's open mindedness to embrace interaction with Princess Sheridan, overcoming any very natural instincts to reject all of this based on unfounded insecurities. i'm also grateful for Princess Sheridan's approach from day one. While being nothing but respectful from the very start, She made it pretty clear that She really wanted to talk to my Wife, and to take a unique step to push this beyond just a fantasy custom clip and more towards a very real and impactful interaction. i now sit here, truly having no idea what might be next, and that's an amazing feeling. i didn't really know it at the time, but after all of that time interacting on the internet, Princess Sheridan's response to me is exactly what i was looking for. i wasn't sure that anything like this was even possible, but in a perfect world, this was exactly what i was looking for, and it's actually happening. i know, careful what you wish for, right? True enough. i'm in for it, but damn this is exciting.

Sitting here in chastity now has a much different feel to it. Goddess D's demeanor has changed significantly since she started interacting with Princess Sheridan. This is already the longest i've ever gone without orgasm. Somehow i sense that being owned by two Dommes doesn't help my chances of getting out of this predicament any time soon. But you know what? i wouldn't trade this for anything. i eagerly await with butterflies, whatever is next to happen.