Been a crazy busy last month, but i hope to check in more often now. One thing that hasn't changed in all that time is the fact that i'm still forbidden to have a pleasurable orgasm, and it's really getting to me now. When i'm taken out of chastity and edged or allowed to edge, the next day is so extremely uncomfortable. i'm not sure if anybody else has had an experience like this before, but i feel like sometimes the simplest friction, even normal friction with my underwear, could cause me to erupt at any moment. i really don't know if this is possible or not but the sensation is scary, especially when i'm not at home.
It's really not a matter of being backed up, as i've been given several ruined orgasms by now. But anyone who has endured ruined orgasms surely knows that they're called ruined for a reason if done properly. There's no pleasure, only more frustration. Truly though i had no idea that this is how the body would react over this amount of time. Goddess D doesn't seem very sympathetic. If anything She seems to want to demonstrate just how little She cares every chance She gets. When i started day 1 in chastity way back in November, i expected no more than a month, and i didn't know She was going to put me in chastity at all. To go from daily orgasms to none like this has been a true test.
i do miss the days that i could get off with Goddess D any time i wanted. She reminds me of that all the time. i also miss being able to watch fetish clips and get off to them. It's crazy for example to think about how much money has been spent on Princess Sheridan's clips and the fact that not even once have i been able to get off to any of them. i discovered Princess Sheridan when in chastity, and 4 months later i'm still in chastity. Goddess D seems to show some mercy at times to other subs but with me, She's talking years and i can't tell if She's completely serious or not. It's way more than i bargained for and Her power over me is so very real! i'm very lucky in so many ways, but wow is this a challenge.
A lot happened today and i'm sure most of it will end up in the clip store. In one case, Goddess D had what had to be the loudest orgasm of Her life. She made Me put my tongue in Her ass the entire time and edged me throughout the session. Then right back in chastity when it was all over. Walking around after that was physically painful. It felt like each of my balls weighed 10 pounds! For my sake i just hope i can get through the work week without too much discomfort, but i'm definitely not holding my breath.
Speaking of holding my breath, Goddess played a smothering facesitting game with me today. Long story short i had to hold my breath for up to 2 minutes at times and when i failed i was punched in the gut!
i guess She was making up for lost time today but when it was all over, i felt dizzy in the head, both from lack of oxygen and all the blood running down to my cock from the relentless teasing. There should be a bit more time for these activities now, so i guess i had better be ready for anything!
Sunday, April 17, 2016
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Dommes Can Be Real People with Real Ethical Values
Yeah, weird title for a blog post i guess, but i was on a bit of a different wavelength today. Many of us probably were with the horrific news of what's going on in Europe. While my life has been an amazing rollercoaster ride filled with Femdom excitement of late, it doesn't seem constructive to blog about that all the time. The clips that have been released have been a pretty solid representation of it anyway. With so much more of our activities public, i almost don't know what to do with this blog lately.
Anyway, back to the subject line. i think that far too often there's a misconception that being a Domme means being a man-hating bitch that wants nothing more than to suck up cash by any means necessary, to wreck marriages without a care and move on to the next poor sucker, ignorant to anything else that's going on in the world. It's always going to be a fine line. But to me there's no ethical struggle if a man voluntarily enters into an arrangement with a Domme and gets in over his head. The Domme didn't make him do that any more than a bartender made somebody an alcoholic or a poker player is at fault for taking their opponent's money. Now, do unethical people exist in the industry in some proportion? i'm sure they do. But it's probably no more common in the world of Femdom than the occasional bad apple that may exist in any more mainstream population. If you take the time to get to know people in this community, most Dommes (and subs) are really quite normal people. i wish more people understood this and acted accordingly.
Not that i needed reminding, but i was reminded of this when i woke up this morning and saw the horrible news out of Belgium and looked at my Twitter feed. Princess Sheridan was one of many Dommes i observed Tweeting not about the usual subject matter or promoting a clip, but instead expressing the very same frustration and outrage that any of us with a heart would feel. i immediately thought of Yuri, one of Her most loyal subs who lives in the general region and reached out to him with concern for his friends and family, as this certainly hit close to home for him. Fortunately his friends and family are safe. The overall point is that despite all of the crazy interactions, the humiliating tasks and demands, this is all mutual interaction and at the core of it there's an unspoken respect. i don't need to know every last thing about a Domme to recognize that She adheres to a solid code of ethics and can be trusted. i'm proud to know people with that kind of character in all walks of my life, including and especially in the BDSM community. If you take the time to get to know many of these people you'll find that they are extremely thoughtful and even more "normal" and respectful than those you may come across in mainstream interactions. i've only been in contact with Princess Sheridan and some of Her subs for a few months at this point, but it doesn't take long to figure out that these are good people. i mean, yeah, Princess seems to take great delight in seeing me get my ass fucked, paddled to the point of tears, and making me humiliate myself in any way that might please Her. But i can see beyond all that. :)
It's funny because when i think back to my original interactions with Princess Sheridan after i ordered the first custom from Her, when She first asked whether my situation with my Wife was real and showed interest in talking to Her, my initial reaction was indeed one of caution. Just in case She really was one of those Dommes looking to play out some kind of unethical blackmail/homewrecker scenario out on me! Her response said it all and i was immediately comfortable:
Homewrecker? LOL! I wouldn't dream of fucking up what you have. I wish all My subbies have what you have. When the time comes I would love to talk to your much much better half. Just us... not you. Of course you'll find out about what we talk about at the opportune moment :p I hope this gets this far eventually. All up to you.
i probably don't need to elaborate on how awesome that was and why Princess Sheridan is just amazing. "From Fantasy to Reality" in Her clip store is the culmination of all of this. Who knew? She didn't have to do that. i certainly didn't directly ask for it. But three months later, here we are. i mean seriously look at where we freaking are lol. This has all been beyond belief.
Clearly, in order for a Domme to be a Domme, image is important. If every Domme just shared their philosophies and real feelings all the time and didn't post sexy pics and talk down to their subbies, there would be no business. That said, i can honestly say that the most rewarding interactions i've had with any Domme have just involved speaking with them on a more real, intelligent level and getting to know the real person a bit more outside of just the fetishes and kinks. When that connection is made, it's a lot sexier to share Domme/sub experiences from there. To me there's nothing sexier than a Woman getting into an intelligent man's head and then using that knowledge and Her sexuality to make him stupid. :) It's certainly worked with my Wife Goddess D, and it works with Princess Sheridan,
A Domme's life is just so much more fascinating than most random acquaintances. Even if i'm not on the receiving end and actually being dominated, i love sharing all the stories and experiences with people in the community we have connected with, and i feel like we're just barely scratching the surface!
As things develop further between Goddess D and i and this clip store, Princess Sheridan continues to be at the forefront as an influence. Every day Goddess is more and more capable, but we still both so very much appreciate all that Princess brings to the table as a mentor to Goddess D and as a Domme to me. It's actually become pretty clear that much of what Princess finds entertaining is not very compatible with most of my Femdom-related interests. But honestly it doesn't even matter. i would be a freaking idiot to not recognize what a great situation this is. Even if certain things are unpleasant, i'm being forced to do unpleasant things for two incredibly attractive Dommes, and that in itself is a dream come true!
Enough babbling for one night though. i'll leave you with a pic from an upcoming clip that seems to be one of Goddess D's more popular ones on Twitter lately. i was desperate for air but yet in heaven at the same time. Such conflicting feelings!
Anyway, back to the subject line. i think that far too often there's a misconception that being a Domme means being a man-hating bitch that wants nothing more than to suck up cash by any means necessary, to wreck marriages without a care and move on to the next poor sucker, ignorant to anything else that's going on in the world. It's always going to be a fine line. But to me there's no ethical struggle if a man voluntarily enters into an arrangement with a Domme and gets in over his head. The Domme didn't make him do that any more than a bartender made somebody an alcoholic or a poker player is at fault for taking their opponent's money. Now, do unethical people exist in the industry in some proportion? i'm sure they do. But it's probably no more common in the world of Femdom than the occasional bad apple that may exist in any more mainstream population. If you take the time to get to know people in this community, most Dommes (and subs) are really quite normal people. i wish more people understood this and acted accordingly.
Not that i needed reminding, but i was reminded of this when i woke up this morning and saw the horrible news out of Belgium and looked at my Twitter feed. Princess Sheridan was one of many Dommes i observed Tweeting not about the usual subject matter or promoting a clip, but instead expressing the very same frustration and outrage that any of us with a heart would feel. i immediately thought of Yuri, one of Her most loyal subs who lives in the general region and reached out to him with concern for his friends and family, as this certainly hit close to home for him. Fortunately his friends and family are safe. The overall point is that despite all of the crazy interactions, the humiliating tasks and demands, this is all mutual interaction and at the core of it there's an unspoken respect. i don't need to know every last thing about a Domme to recognize that She adheres to a solid code of ethics and can be trusted. i'm proud to know people with that kind of character in all walks of my life, including and especially in the BDSM community. If you take the time to get to know many of these people you'll find that they are extremely thoughtful and even more "normal" and respectful than those you may come across in mainstream interactions. i've only been in contact with Princess Sheridan and some of Her subs for a few months at this point, but it doesn't take long to figure out that these are good people. i mean, yeah, Princess seems to take great delight in seeing me get my ass fucked, paddled to the point of tears, and making me humiliate myself in any way that might please Her. But i can see beyond all that. :)
It's funny because when i think back to my original interactions with Princess Sheridan after i ordered the first custom from Her, when She first asked whether my situation with my Wife was real and showed interest in talking to Her, my initial reaction was indeed one of caution. Just in case She really was one of those Dommes looking to play out some kind of unethical blackmail/homewrecker scenario out on me! Her response said it all and i was immediately comfortable:
Homewrecker? LOL! I wouldn't dream of fucking up what you have. I wish all My subbies have what you have. When the time comes I would love to talk to your much much better half. Just us... not you. Of course you'll find out about what we talk about at the opportune moment :p I hope this gets this far eventually. All up to you.
i probably don't need to elaborate on how awesome that was and why Princess Sheridan is just amazing. "From Fantasy to Reality" in Her clip store is the culmination of all of this. Who knew? She didn't have to do that. i certainly didn't directly ask for it. But three months later, here we are. i mean seriously look at where we freaking are lol. This has all been beyond belief.
Clearly, in order for a Domme to be a Domme, image is important. If every Domme just shared their philosophies and real feelings all the time and didn't post sexy pics and talk down to their subbies, there would be no business. That said, i can honestly say that the most rewarding interactions i've had with any Domme have just involved speaking with them on a more real, intelligent level and getting to know the real person a bit more outside of just the fetishes and kinks. When that connection is made, it's a lot sexier to share Domme/sub experiences from there. To me there's nothing sexier than a Woman getting into an intelligent man's head and then using that knowledge and Her sexuality to make him stupid. :) It's certainly worked with my Wife Goddess D, and it works with Princess Sheridan,
A Domme's life is just so much more fascinating than most random acquaintances. Even if i'm not on the receiving end and actually being dominated, i love sharing all the stories and experiences with people in the community we have connected with, and i feel like we're just barely scratching the surface!
As things develop further between Goddess D and i and this clip store, Princess Sheridan continues to be at the forefront as an influence. Every day Goddess is more and more capable, but we still both so very much appreciate all that Princess brings to the table as a mentor to Goddess D and as a Domme to me. It's actually become pretty clear that much of what Princess finds entertaining is not very compatible with most of my Femdom-related interests. But honestly it doesn't even matter. i would be a freaking idiot to not recognize what a great situation this is. Even if certain things are unpleasant, i'm being forced to do unpleasant things for two incredibly attractive Dommes, and that in itself is a dream come true!
Enough babbling for one night though. i'll leave you with a pic from an upcoming clip that seems to be one of Goddess D's more popular ones on Twitter lately. i was desperate for air but yet in heaven at the same time. Such conflicting feelings!
Monday, March 14, 2016
Clip Store Craziness
Sorry for the big layoff on the blog for anybody who's been checking in. i assume that anyone reading this blog is very likely already following Goddess D on Twitter, so it's no big secret what's been happening. Everything that has been happening as i serve Goddess D is remaining largely the same, but now all of a sudden there's the additional effort to basically film anything that happens. Even if no good content comes from it, just about every time Goddess decides to torture me in the bedroom, the webcam is up and running.
Often, there isn't even any intent to film anything and the mood strikes Goddess D to do something crazy to me. The store opened less than 4 days ago and there are already clips in so many categories. She's done a POV clip, She's spit in my mouth, violated my ass, whipped and paddled me, farted in my face audibly twice, facesat me relentlessly (in and out of chastity), and one of the few times She had me out of chastity, She delivered one of the most agonizing ruined orgasms i've ever experienced. In case you haven't seen it, this gif tells the story.
i didn't know for sure that this was what Goddess was going to do to me, but once She did and i got over the initial wave of frustration, i was just thinking wow, i'd buy that clip. There are still times that i wonder what got into Her. The way She taunts me in this clip while that single drop slowly makes its appearance is so evil. You can hear the excitement in Her voice. You just can't fake that kind of fun, all at my expense. It's so humiliating and so real and i may never get any relief from Her torture. Any time i play one of these clips back and listen to Her laughing or see the genuine smile on Her face, it sinks in just how much trouble i'm in. This is life now.
One thing that i am finding a little disturbing, though i guess i'll have to get over it, is having what used to be an extremely private part of my body on display like that. Strangely enough it didn't bother me much when in chastity, but let's just say it's an adjustment. Fortunately, Goddess D's presence is able to compensate for that thing being on camera (i hope most would agree).
Anyway, i made it a point to tell Princess Sheridan that i now have an even greater respect for the hard work She puts into Her stores. Goddess does the dominating, but the responsibilities of editing clips goes primarily to me. Goddess of course tells me what She wants. It was Her idea for example on the "Introducing Goddess D" clip to insert little snips of Her doing things to me as She talked about them in the POV clip. Brilliant idea by the way as i thought that clip came out really well. Princess also seems very impressed with the way Goddess has taken to this. She really does sound like a pro Domme. It's clear this was in there all along but it's to a whole new level now.
In order for a c4s store to be activated, there has to be at least 10 unique clips. Little did i know how much time it takes to edit each one and how long they take to upload! After a few days of struggling with the process, i was presented with something to contend with in that if everything wasn't up and running by the end of the day Thursday, the paddle might be a consequence. i do believe i got to bed at 5 AM that night! It's one thing to have the footage and descriptions ready. It's an entirely different thing to review the clips beginning to end to make sure faces aren't showing, to cut out certain unusable sections of clip, etc. So that's why there hasn't been any time to blog. Editing and then the fact that when sales started piling up this past weekend, Goddess just kept wanting to torture me more and more.
The sales results have been interesting early on. Apparently, there's quite a market for farting out there! i guess i'll take that over being paddled, but there's probably going to be some nasty activities in the future as Goddess gets legitimate amusement out of humiliating me that way and to top it all off, those clips are apparently not all that easy to find and quite popular. A custom clip request on that topic is actually being discussed and could mean a rough go for me. The script asks Goddess to be even meaner to me than She already is! The ruined orgasm clip has been popular as well and anything with chastity. i can't say i'm disappointed that nobody has had too much interest in seeing my ass fucked so far! :) i'm not naive though. i know that won't protect me from having it happen again.
Another amazing thing is the Twitter reaction at times. There are too many Dommes to name, but Goddess has been liked and followed and retweeted by so many Dommes that we've been familiar with for a long time. It's crazy to see Goddess post a pic or gif from one of the clips and to see immediate likes from somebody like Ellie Idol or Ezada Sinn, just to name a few. One of the chastity clips and the ruined orgasm clip are climbing c4s leaderboards faster than either of us could've ever imagined! Even if short-lived, it's very cool to see. And of course, it's always an absolute privilege to get Princess Sheridan's seal of approval!
There are so many things i could go on and on about, but i'll have to save it for another day. Just had to check in and get a post in before any more time passed. i'll leave you with this devastatingly sexy picture of Goddess D, even if it happens to be devastatingly frustrating for me to view...
Often, there isn't even any intent to film anything and the mood strikes Goddess D to do something crazy to me. The store opened less than 4 days ago and there are already clips in so many categories. She's done a POV clip, She's spit in my mouth, violated my ass, whipped and paddled me, farted in my face audibly twice, facesat me relentlessly (in and out of chastity), and one of the few times She had me out of chastity, She delivered one of the most agonizing ruined orgasms i've ever experienced. In case you haven't seen it, this gif tells the story.
i didn't know for sure that this was what Goddess was going to do to me, but once She did and i got over the initial wave of frustration, i was just thinking wow, i'd buy that clip. There are still times that i wonder what got into Her. The way She taunts me in this clip while that single drop slowly makes its appearance is so evil. You can hear the excitement in Her voice. You just can't fake that kind of fun, all at my expense. It's so humiliating and so real and i may never get any relief from Her torture. Any time i play one of these clips back and listen to Her laughing or see the genuine smile on Her face, it sinks in just how much trouble i'm in. This is life now.
One thing that i am finding a little disturbing, though i guess i'll have to get over it, is having what used to be an extremely private part of my body on display like that. Strangely enough it didn't bother me much when in chastity, but let's just say it's an adjustment. Fortunately, Goddess D's presence is able to compensate for that thing being on camera (i hope most would agree).
Anyway, i made it a point to tell Princess Sheridan that i now have an even greater respect for the hard work She puts into Her stores. Goddess does the dominating, but the responsibilities of editing clips goes primarily to me. Goddess of course tells me what She wants. It was Her idea for example on the "Introducing Goddess D" clip to insert little snips of Her doing things to me as She talked about them in the POV clip. Brilliant idea by the way as i thought that clip came out really well. Princess also seems very impressed with the way Goddess has taken to this. She really does sound like a pro Domme. It's clear this was in there all along but it's to a whole new level now.
In order for a c4s store to be activated, there has to be at least 10 unique clips. Little did i know how much time it takes to edit each one and how long they take to upload! After a few days of struggling with the process, i was presented with something to contend with in that if everything wasn't up and running by the end of the day Thursday, the paddle might be a consequence. i do believe i got to bed at 5 AM that night! It's one thing to have the footage and descriptions ready. It's an entirely different thing to review the clips beginning to end to make sure faces aren't showing, to cut out certain unusable sections of clip, etc. So that's why there hasn't been any time to blog. Editing and then the fact that when sales started piling up this past weekend, Goddess just kept wanting to torture me more and more.
The sales results have been interesting early on. Apparently, there's quite a market for farting out there! i guess i'll take that over being paddled, but there's probably going to be some nasty activities in the future as Goddess gets legitimate amusement out of humiliating me that way and to top it all off, those clips are apparently not all that easy to find and quite popular. A custom clip request on that topic is actually being discussed and could mean a rough go for me. The script asks Goddess to be even meaner to me than She already is! The ruined orgasm clip has been popular as well and anything with chastity. i can't say i'm disappointed that nobody has had too much interest in seeing my ass fucked so far! :) i'm not naive though. i know that won't protect me from having it happen again.
Another amazing thing is the Twitter reaction at times. There are too many Dommes to name, but Goddess has been liked and followed and retweeted by so many Dommes that we've been familiar with for a long time. It's crazy to see Goddess post a pic or gif from one of the clips and to see immediate likes from somebody like Ellie Idol or Ezada Sinn, just to name a few. One of the chastity clips and the ruined orgasm clip are climbing c4s leaderboards faster than either of us could've ever imagined! Even if short-lived, it's very cool to see. And of course, it's always an absolute privilege to get Princess Sheridan's seal of approval!
There are so many things i could go on and on about, but i'll have to save it for another day. Just had to check in and get a post in before any more time passed. i'll leave you with this devastatingly sexy picture of Goddess D, even if it happens to be devastatingly frustrating for me to view...
Tuesday, March 1, 2016
Intense Weekend
i mentioned in the last blog post that due to things being a little busy i was able to achieve a pretty relaxed mental state where i wasn't going completely crazy over going so long without a good orgasm. Well, let's just say i no longer feel that way. Right now it can be better described as a constant dull ache at day 96, largely the result of a crazy weekend. To summarize, there was a ruined orgasm one night; the next night involved being violated in the ass, cropped, flogged and paddled; and the next night teased, facesat and edged. Oh, and to top that all off, Goddess D started receiving some tributes and emails. From custom clip requests to keyholder inquiries to inquiries about buying Her stinky socks, i guess there was just a little bit of everything.
Off topic, i just realized that this blog recently reached 1,000 hits. i'm sure that's not all that significant a number and that a lot of those are repeat hits. Still, i can't help but be amazed at how many people from how many different countries have read about our exploits. Of course, Goddess D is the draw to this blog, as She should be, but still i'm flattered. To those who are reading along, please don't feel like you have to be a stranger. Goddess and i enjoy hearing from those with similar interests. It's not like it's easy to talk about this subject matter at the local coffee shop with casual acquaintances. :) Anyway, on to this weekend's activities:
Friday
There are certain things about our ongoing experiences that i still find very surreal. One of those things is realizing just how immersed Goddess D has become in this lifestyle. When Goddess first set up Her Twitter account at Princess Sheridan's request a few months back, She initially followed Princess Sheridan and i of course, but after a little bit of time it made sense for Her to follow some more people. Logically it made sense early on for Her to follow a lot of the Dommes that i was following. It's no secret that over the years i've purchased a decent number of Femdom fetish clips and Goddess D was already somewhat familiar with many of these Dommes as She's seen many of the clips. She was unfamiliar with Twitter early on, but is now pretty comfortable on there, finding interesting people to follow on Her own and even interacting with some of them on occasion.
That is what leads me to the surreal part. I checked my Twitter when i got off work and saw a few light-hearted Tweets between Goddess D and one of those Dommes. It wasn't anything crazy, Goddess was basically just complimenting one of Her pictures or something, but still it kind of made me think about how far things have come along. It's such a little thing in the big picture but if you had told me months back that my Wife would be casually conversing with Dommes on Twitter, it wouldn't have been believable. By now, Goddess is following enough people that She doesn't even recall whose clips She's seen and usually doesn't make the connection even if She's looking at the Twitter page of a Domme She's seen before. This case was no different. Of course, being a perverted male, i had no such difficulty recalling some of the clips that Domme had produced.
For what it's worth, Goddess D commented on a picture that Sarah Diavola had Tweeted. When i arrived at home and eventually had a chance to converse with Her, i mentioned that i saw the conversation and that i thought it was so crazy how in the past we might have watched a fetish clip in the bedroom together, and now everything is on such a different level that She feels comfortable talking to these Women basically as peers. She pretty easily recognized that this was a turn-on for me as well and it didn't take Her long to have some fun with it.
It just so happens that i have a few of Sarah's ruined orgasm clips and pointed that out to Goddess D. Like i said, She didn't make the connection at first. But then curiosity got the best of Her and before long one of them was playing on the bedroom TV and not long after that i was chained to the bed. For anybody not familiar with Sarah, She's definitely got quite the mean streak and is more than capable of delivering a verbal lashing in any of Her clips (not unlike another Domme we've come to know very well!). i'm always trying to better explore and understand my kinks, but one thing i know for sure is that the verbals are absolutely critical. Visuals can go a long way, but combined with the right words, i just fall deep into submission. It's not hard to figure out where this goes. The clips are POV but Sarah really is jerking a slave from that angle. We actually watched two of those clips and both times She was mean throughout and pretty clear that all the guy was going to get was a ruined orgasm. By the end of the second clip after Goddess had edged me for a solid half hour, and i was shuddering. Probably the longest i had ever been edged continuously and when Sarah ruined that second slave's orgasm, Goddess D ruined mine within a matter of seconds. So unbelievably frustrating, but such an intense experience. i remained hard for quite a while, but eventually was put away right back into my chastity cage.
Saturday
As if Friday wasn't enough, Saturday was even more intense. i knew this was a day i was going to kind of dread. Why, you might ask? Well, if you recall not long ago Princess Sheridan made a few custom clips for Goddess D, the second of which involved Her violating my ass with Her finger for the first time ever all while being verbally berated by Princess, all followed by a paddling. It was painful all around.. We didn't have the HD webcam at that point, nor had we shared much of any footage with Princess Sheridan. We really were kind of late to the game when it came to actually filming ourselves, but i think once Princess realized we were open to taking video, She requested that we "re-enact" the scene so She could use some of the footage for Her clip.
Which reminds me... i do believe in my last blog post i mentioned how much i love Princess Sheridan's way with words. When we were unable to film one weekend i made a comment to Princess that She was welcome to know more about our schedules if it helped Her plan out the timing for working on the clip. She responded with this doozy...
Off topic, i just realized that this blog recently reached 1,000 hits. i'm sure that's not all that significant a number and that a lot of those are repeat hits. Still, i can't help but be amazed at how many people from how many different countries have read about our exploits. Of course, Goddess D is the draw to this blog, as She should be, but still i'm flattered. To those who are reading along, please don't feel like you have to be a stranger. Goddess and i enjoy hearing from those with similar interests. It's not like it's easy to talk about this subject matter at the local coffee shop with casual acquaintances. :) Anyway, on to this weekend's activities:
Friday
There are certain things about our ongoing experiences that i still find very surreal. One of those things is realizing just how immersed Goddess D has become in this lifestyle. When Goddess first set up Her Twitter account at Princess Sheridan's request a few months back, She initially followed Princess Sheridan and i of course, but after a little bit of time it made sense for Her to follow some more people. Logically it made sense early on for Her to follow a lot of the Dommes that i was following. It's no secret that over the years i've purchased a decent number of Femdom fetish clips and Goddess D was already somewhat familiar with many of these Dommes as She's seen many of the clips. She was unfamiliar with Twitter early on, but is now pretty comfortable on there, finding interesting people to follow on Her own and even interacting with some of them on occasion.
That is what leads me to the surreal part. I checked my Twitter when i got off work and saw a few light-hearted Tweets between Goddess D and one of those Dommes. It wasn't anything crazy, Goddess was basically just complimenting one of Her pictures or something, but still it kind of made me think about how far things have come along. It's such a little thing in the big picture but if you had told me months back that my Wife would be casually conversing with Dommes on Twitter, it wouldn't have been believable. By now, Goddess is following enough people that She doesn't even recall whose clips She's seen and usually doesn't make the connection even if She's looking at the Twitter page of a Domme She's seen before. This case was no different. Of course, being a perverted male, i had no such difficulty recalling some of the clips that Domme had produced.
For what it's worth, Goddess D commented on a picture that Sarah Diavola had Tweeted. When i arrived at home and eventually had a chance to converse with Her, i mentioned that i saw the conversation and that i thought it was so crazy how in the past we might have watched a fetish clip in the bedroom together, and now everything is on such a different level that She feels comfortable talking to these Women basically as peers. She pretty easily recognized that this was a turn-on for me as well and it didn't take Her long to have some fun with it.
It just so happens that i have a few of Sarah's ruined orgasm clips and pointed that out to Goddess D. Like i said, She didn't make the connection at first. But then curiosity got the best of Her and before long one of them was playing on the bedroom TV and not long after that i was chained to the bed. For anybody not familiar with Sarah, She's definitely got quite the mean streak and is more than capable of delivering a verbal lashing in any of Her clips (not unlike another Domme we've come to know very well!). i'm always trying to better explore and understand my kinks, but one thing i know for sure is that the verbals are absolutely critical. Visuals can go a long way, but combined with the right words, i just fall deep into submission. It's not hard to figure out where this goes. The clips are POV but Sarah really is jerking a slave from that angle. We actually watched two of those clips and both times She was mean throughout and pretty clear that all the guy was going to get was a ruined orgasm. By the end of the second clip after Goddess had edged me for a solid half hour, and i was shuddering. Probably the longest i had ever been edged continuously and when Sarah ruined that second slave's orgasm, Goddess D ruined mine within a matter of seconds. So unbelievably frustrating, but such an intense experience. i remained hard for quite a while, but eventually was put away right back into my chastity cage.
Saturday
As if Friday wasn't enough, Saturday was even more intense. i knew this was a day i was going to kind of dread. Why, you might ask? Well, if you recall not long ago Princess Sheridan made a few custom clips for Goddess D, the second of which involved Her violating my ass with Her finger for the first time ever all while being verbally berated by Princess, all followed by a paddling. It was painful all around.. We didn't have the HD webcam at that point, nor had we shared much of any footage with Princess Sheridan. We really were kind of late to the game when it came to actually filming ourselves, but i think once Princess realized we were open to taking video, She requested that we "re-enact" the scene so She could use some of the footage for Her clip.
Which reminds me... i do believe in my last blog post i mentioned how much i love Princess Sheridan's way with words. When we were unable to film one weekend i made a comment to Princess that She was welcome to know more about our schedules if it helped Her plan out the timing for working on the clip. She responded with this doozy...
Is it weird that this made me smile? Yeah, i guess it is. i just can't help but love Her ability to drop a message like this at pretty much any time. It almost made me feel better about the fact that i was going to get my ass fucked again. Almost.
Well, on to the ass fucking. Damn, this was uncomfortable. Goddess this time took it up a notch. She had me lay face down on the bed, stomach on a pillow so i wasn't completely crushing the chastity device, and then cuffed my hands to the headboard and my legs to the foot of the bed. There was going to be no escaping this one even if i tried. Goddess filmed all of the cuffing exercise, then started playing Princess Sheridan's custom clip again. Before you know it, there's a finger in my ass. As if that wasn't enough, She eventually worked a dildo in there. My ass felt weird for the next few days. i can't say this was pleasurable for me. The only pleasure came from knowing that Goddess D was having fun and that Princess Sheridan was probably going to very much enjoy watching this torture. Here's an embarrassing photo from the ordeal...
That clip ran for 17 minutes. Something was in my ass for about 14 of it. Argh.
So we're done right? Nope. Time to get cropped, flogged and paddled. New clip. Ten times with each item. The crop was somewhat tolerable. The flogger was more difficult to deal with and Goddess marked up my body from legs to upper back. But that damn paddle, omg does it hurt. By the 6th swat i was almost crying and on the verge of begging Goddess to stop. She slowed down a little bit to as to avoid that situation, and eventually we got to 10. But ouch. Sure, i guess i'm a huge pussy about this. But you can't look at this screen grab and tell me that i didn't take some kind of beating!
Princess was happy with this clip as well, 10 minutes in length, although She always seems to want more:
That's because of my uncontrollable screaming from the pain i suppose. A gag would control that somewhat. i swear i'd take 30 swats from the flogger before 10 from the paddle. It's just awful.
When this was done, i just put my head down a broken mess, so relieved that it was over. Princess received the footage late that night and to my amazement as late as it was seemed to watch just about all of it. i found the footage embarrassing. She must have really found it entertaining!
Sunday
On Sunday, we filmed a few more bedroom scenes. Some edging. Some facesitting. Goddess D definitely teased the camera some and had some things to say. Every time we had something exciting going though, i swear our dog (normally pretty mild mannered) messed it up by barging into the room or barking for seemingly no reason. That was enough to kill the mood. We'll go back through the footage at some point as some of it was pretty good.
Regardless, that wasn't the most interesting happening of the day. As i said above, and as i eluded to in the last blog post, Goddess has started drawing interest from potential subs. i have no idea how much of it will materialize into anything, but there was no shortage of interested men this past weekend. Suddenly, She may be filming Her first custom POV clip soon. A few subs have inquired about Her being their keyholder. There was even an inquiry about whether She would sell Her used stinky socks. All of this was pretty overwhelming to Her at first, but exciting. This is where i'm very happy that Princess Sheridan is in Goddess D's corner and is such an amazing mentor to Her. i find the business fascinating but i have no idea how Goddess should handle some of this stuff. Princess seemed to calmly point out to Goddess that She's a Domme and can do whatever She wants. If it's worth Her time to send out stinky socks for a certain price then She will. If not, She won't. Same goes for any custom video, virtual keyholder, or any other request. Early on though, She does seem to love the attention. With that will come some bullshit as well i'm sure, but it comes with the territory.
In summary, needless to say we'll have to get a clip store running. Goddess just posted a poll asking what kind of material people would like to see. She'll do whatever She feels like doing of course, but if i work up the courage i suppose the clips referenced in this post might see the light of day. From the poll results so far, it seems like there's interest across the entire spectrum of Femdom activities. There's still no real timeline on this but a store may be up sooner rather than later. We're just taking it one day at a time. And that reminds me that i'm only a few days away from day 100 straight without a pleasurable orgasm. Why do i get the feeling that Goddess D is going to have some fun with that at my expense?
Monday, February 22, 2016
Goddess D's Continuing Evolution
Princess Sheridan has said a lot of things to me over the past few months, as i'm sure She has to all of Her owned subs. Some of Her words embarrass or humiliate me. Some of them scare me. Some of them excite me. Some of them make me marvel at Her way with words and their delivery. Many of them do all of the above. And then sometimes She says things, usually in reference to Goddess D, that i really have a hard time believing in that moment. Yet weeks later i look back on it and i see exactly what She said coming to fruition.
The most obvious such comment was early on when She basically asked if i could handle the changes in Goddess D, that She was playing then but eventually i would find myself married to an actual Domme. To be honest i took that with a grain of salt. i was having fun, but i really didn't see that same vision. Goddess D and i have been together for so long. Was that kind of change really possible? Well, i see it now.
Another statement, shortly after Princess Sheridan generously invited Goddess D to play with some of Her subs, was that just like i am one of many to Princess, the same is now true of my relationship to Goddess D. i guess i really didn't see that happening on any kind of significant scale either, but suddenly i see that Goddess is having genuine fun with this. Unfortunately for Yuri, that trend seems to be continuing. i hear from Goddess D often enough about some high level conversations She has with Yuri, but then i see the screen shots with the specific conversations posted in his blog and i'm just sort of blown away. Where is this coming from? Yuri and i definitely have some of the same fetishes, and as a result i do think Goddess is especially skilled at torturing him, but i'm most astounded by how much genuine enjoyment She gets out of it and how excited She is about the prospect of having multiple subs to amuse Her.
Goddess is now getting more attention on Twitter as She gains more and more followers and seems likely to take on new interactions if She's spoiled and entertained enough. i can't sit here and tell you what things will look like in six months or a year, but i do have to guess very different than they are today! it'll be really interesting to see how things evolve. As men become infatuated with Goddess on Twitter, She's started to require tributes for the privilege of Her attention (Princess Sheridan's owned subs excluded of course). Pictures like this certainly do cause such swooning reactions from men:
i can tell Goddess D feels empowered by the attention, and if there's any curiosity as to my feelings about Her taking on these types of interactions, i'm completely secure with it. She deserves to be worshipped and spoiled as much as possible! i'm just lucky to have the privilege of serving her directly in person. Very, very, very lucky. Princess reminds me of that all the time and there's always something amazing about hearing another gorgeous Domme compliment my wife in that manner. i do not take any of this for granted. i feel like i'm one of the luckiest men in the world on so many different levels.
Goddess seems ready to torture me at almost any time and now that our new webcam has arrived, i'm already very concerned about what's ahead. i'm excited, but i'm concerned based on some of what has happened to me already. Even if Goddess wanted to take it easy on me, and She doesn't, Princess is planting new ideas in Her head all the time! One of my nicknames that came from Princess early on was "dummy." There's no doubt i'll be used as Goddess D's personal dummy in front of the camera for hours at a time with plenty of input from Princess Sheridan. It really is a very helpless feeling especially after being prevented orgasm for close to 90 days now.
Surprisingly, while i'm definitely desperate for orgasm, being a little busy over the last week has kept my mind off it enough where i don't feel like i'm going completely insane. That could change at the drop of a dime however. i do seem to go through cycles where sometimes i'm extremely horny and other times i'm just resigned to the fact that my cock is locked away and i can be somewhat chill about it. Regardless of which phase i'm in, i'm always thinking about all of what is happening and this surreal life i'm living. i always look forward to my next interactions with Goddess D and Princess Sheridan. It's like a game of chess that i can never really win, but i love the intellectual challenge all the same and can't get enough!
The most obvious such comment was early on when She basically asked if i could handle the changes in Goddess D, that She was playing then but eventually i would find myself married to an actual Domme. To be honest i took that with a grain of salt. i was having fun, but i really didn't see that same vision. Goddess D and i have been together for so long. Was that kind of change really possible? Well, i see it now.
Another statement, shortly after Princess Sheridan generously invited Goddess D to play with some of Her subs, was that just like i am one of many to Princess, the same is now true of my relationship to Goddess D. i guess i really didn't see that happening on any kind of significant scale either, but suddenly i see that Goddess is having genuine fun with this. Unfortunately for Yuri, that trend seems to be continuing. i hear from Goddess D often enough about some high level conversations She has with Yuri, but then i see the screen shots with the specific conversations posted in his blog and i'm just sort of blown away. Where is this coming from? Yuri and i definitely have some of the same fetishes, and as a result i do think Goddess is especially skilled at torturing him, but i'm most astounded by how much genuine enjoyment She gets out of it and how excited She is about the prospect of having multiple subs to amuse Her.
Goddess is now getting more attention on Twitter as She gains more and more followers and seems likely to take on new interactions if She's spoiled and entertained enough. i can't sit here and tell you what things will look like in six months or a year, but i do have to guess very different than they are today! it'll be really interesting to see how things evolve. As men become infatuated with Goddess on Twitter, She's started to require tributes for the privilege of Her attention (Princess Sheridan's owned subs excluded of course). Pictures like this certainly do cause such swooning reactions from men:
i can tell Goddess D feels empowered by the attention, and if there's any curiosity as to my feelings about Her taking on these types of interactions, i'm completely secure with it. She deserves to be worshipped and spoiled as much as possible! i'm just lucky to have the privilege of serving her directly in person. Very, very, very lucky. Princess reminds me of that all the time and there's always something amazing about hearing another gorgeous Domme compliment my wife in that manner. i do not take any of this for granted. i feel like i'm one of the luckiest men in the world on so many different levels.
Goddess seems ready to torture me at almost any time and now that our new webcam has arrived, i'm already very concerned about what's ahead. i'm excited, but i'm concerned based on some of what has happened to me already. Even if Goddess wanted to take it easy on me, and She doesn't, Princess is planting new ideas in Her head all the time! One of my nicknames that came from Princess early on was "dummy." There's no doubt i'll be used as Goddess D's personal dummy in front of the camera for hours at a time with plenty of input from Princess Sheridan. It really is a very helpless feeling especially after being prevented orgasm for close to 90 days now.
Surprisingly, while i'm definitely desperate for orgasm, being a little busy over the last week has kept my mind off it enough where i don't feel like i'm going completely insane. That could change at the drop of a dime however. i do seem to go through cycles where sometimes i'm extremely horny and other times i'm just resigned to the fact that my cock is locked away and i can be somewhat chill about it. Regardless of which phase i'm in, i'm always thinking about all of what is happening and this surreal life i'm living. i always look forward to my next interactions with Goddess D and Princess Sheridan. It's like a game of chess that i can never really win, but i love the intellectual challenge all the same and can't get enough!
Monday, February 15, 2016
Putting Some Boundaries to the Test
As i mentioned in my last post, i knew there were some toys coming in the mail and that there was definitely going to be some pain in my near future. i was at least somewhat mentally prepared for the paddle and whips that were on the way. i wish i was as well prepared for everything else that was going to happen. In hindsight i'm not sure how i didn't see this coming.
More than a week ago Goddess D after speaking with Princess Sheridan asked me a few questions about my limits. One of those questions related to the idea of a prostate milking and basically, whether or not that was a hard limit for me. That question kind of froze me. Using the scale i presented before where 1 = no way and 10 = exciting to the max, this idea registered about a 2. When i see stuff on the internet involving a guy in chastity being forced into ruined orgasms that way, or even getting pegged, there's definitely a part of me that sees the appeal strictly due to the level of control the Domme has and his helpless predicament. It's certainly a humiliating act. Yet, i've never had any kind of real desire to experience that myself. Around the time Goddess first asked, She didn't really care all that much if it was something i wanted. She just wanted to know if i would give my consent. i reluctantly did as generally i'm willing to do anything i can for Goddess D and Princess Sheridan if it makes Them happy and i think i can handle it. Goddess had me under the impression it was going to happen soon. Well, it didn't happen that weekend, and then after the recent ruined orgasm i kind of figured it might not happen at all. i kind of relaxed on that topic and mistakenly assumed that it was off the table for the time being.
Once Saturday came around this past weekend, i slowly picked up on some details that had me a little nervous. Goddess D made it pretty clear that i should be nervous, as the second part of the custom clip Princess Sheridan filmed for Goddess D was ready. The first part of the clip was for Goddess D's viewing only, giving Her instructions on how to treat me around the house, including subjects such as how to behave in public (always getting doors, walking behind Goddess, carrying Her bags, etc) as well as how She should treat me in the house (subbie meals, fetching things for Goddess, cleaning and anything else She could ever desire). i finally had a chance to see this clip, which also included a section where Princess addressed me directly about what was expected of me. As you could probably guess, Princess was extremely complimentary of Goddess D while pretty dismissive of me. It was definitely interesting to see the clip that communicated some early ideas to Goddess D, a great influence on how i've been treated by Goddess since.
Before we watched the second clip, Goddess D laid out some items on the bed. This included the paddle that had just arrived, a crop, and a glove. She started the clip on the big TV in our bedroom and it wasn't long before Princess Sheridan, looking extremely sexy as always in Her catsuit, was providing instructions for Goddess D on what She should do to me. Almost right away, i was laying down facing forward on the bed in chastity while i listened to Princess instruct Goddess to put on Her glove, lube up my ass and basically to get Her middle finger in there. Things got pretty real pretty fast. This clip ran over 10 minutes and for that entire duration, Goddess D was playing around in there, taking great delight in humiliating me in that manner. Meanwhile, i listened to Princess Sheridan tell me that this was what sex was going to be like from now on, that Goddess D doesn't need me to get Hers. Princess also expressed Her attraction for Goddess D while commenting on how the two of Them could use strap-ons on each other while basically discarding my pathetic self. i listened to all of this, for 10 minutes, laid out forward on the bed with a finger and eventually two fingers, in my ass. It's honestly embarrassing to even type these details. Princess also asked Goddess to spit in my mouth and in my face during the clip, and She gladly obliged. The physical abuse i endured was intense, but it's always the words that get to me the most in a situation like this. i get harder in my cage listening to Goddess D or Princess Sheridan reminding me of my hopeless chastity situation or degrading me in some other manner than anything else.
The clip ended with some words that were likely added as a late edit, as Princess had heard that the paddle arrived that day. Those words instructed Goddess D to go ahead and try out those new toys on me. i didn't really get any breaks. Instead i ended up with multiple whacks with this paddle from Goddess...
That thing may not look like much, but wow did it hurt. Goddess D wasn't even going that hard on me and each smack made my ass redder. By the time She got to whack #10 i was broken out in a sweat and hoping for it to stop. Goddess D had the cam running on this one and i forwarded the clip to Princess Sheridan later in the evening. She called me a pussy, and rightfully so as i could hardly take any of it without screaming. She did seem to love hearing Goddess D's laughter throughout though. i do believe that was the first time Princess Sheridan had a chance to see Goddess D in action, so that was kind of a special moment. :) Hopefully my screams didn't get in the way of it too much.
Prior to Saturday, i had never experienced any kind of anal play nor had i experienced much in the way of whipping or spanking. This will definitely serve as a deterrent should i step out of line in the future, as it was extremely painful to me despite the fact that i probably took a fraction of what many men can handle.
The more i've interacted with Goddess D over the last several days, the more i'm realizing just how very fucked i am. The whole thing is a complete mindfuck. She's merciless and She's enjoying it. She's not bullshitting me about it any more (She used to, back in the day). When She says she doesn't give a fuck about my orgasms She means it. When She says She wants to get off on my pain She means it. i generally read people very well and what i'm reading in Goddess D is scary. With the right push from Princess Sheridan, Goddess D has absolutely evolved into a sadist. She wants this without a doubt and that has turned my previous fantasies into what is now a reality. It's extremely sexy to me of course, but never in my life did i think i'd actually be in a position to be owned like this for real.
Even today, after being put back into my chastity cage, on a Monday night, Goddess chained me to the bed to fuck with me. She put on one of the bra and panties sets i bought Her on the shopping trip, pried my mouth open wide and dropped spit into it from way above multiple times. She buried my face in Her pussy and ass while my cock hopelessly pressed against its cage. About 45 minutes of the evening was just taken for purposes of torturing me, and She intends on making that a more regular occurrence. The few times She's tortured me this way when out of my cage, it has been nearly impossible to get me back in. And not because i'm hard, but simply because my balls are so swollen from it that it's difficult to get the ring around them.
Anyway, i don't need any more convincing. i know i'm pretty much in for it now and i have nobody to blame but myself. i've been all about exploring my fantasies for a long time and have been very open with Goddess D about those fantasies. i've definitely wanted to be sexually adventurous over the years in a variety of ways and we've certainly had our fair share of fun experiences. i always just figured we'd try something here, try something there, but nothing would really change in our day-to-day lives. Little did i know it at the time, but that all went out the window the day i decided to contact Princess Sheridan. i had no idea what i was stepping into and there is no escaping this tangled web now.
If following on along Twitter, i'm sure you've noticed more in the way of footage from some of our interactions taken by a low quality webcam, including some recent gifs. While these clips were taken more for the purposes of capturing screen shots and for our own personal viewing, some of them have been sexy enough that we may now be inspired to take it a step further. It sounds like Princess Sheridan has some interest in using some of our footage in Her clips based on what Goddess D has relayed to me. i have no idea the extent to which She'd want to do that but it of course would be an absolute honor.
We went ahead and ordered an HD webcam yesterday, so once that arrives we may be filming some more footage. Whatever gets filmed will pretty much be beyond my control. i consent to it of course but am not lying when i tell you that i'm extremely uneasy about the various ways i can look forward to being humiliated on video.
In a previous post i did mention the moment that Goddess D unexpectedly blasted a fart in my face with not a care in the world for my reaction and laughed about it. Well here's the exact moment it happened in a gif...
More than a week ago Goddess D after speaking with Princess Sheridan asked me a few questions about my limits. One of those questions related to the idea of a prostate milking and basically, whether or not that was a hard limit for me. That question kind of froze me. Using the scale i presented before where 1 = no way and 10 = exciting to the max, this idea registered about a 2. When i see stuff on the internet involving a guy in chastity being forced into ruined orgasms that way, or even getting pegged, there's definitely a part of me that sees the appeal strictly due to the level of control the Domme has and his helpless predicament. It's certainly a humiliating act. Yet, i've never had any kind of real desire to experience that myself. Around the time Goddess first asked, She didn't really care all that much if it was something i wanted. She just wanted to know if i would give my consent. i reluctantly did as generally i'm willing to do anything i can for Goddess D and Princess Sheridan if it makes Them happy and i think i can handle it. Goddess had me under the impression it was going to happen soon. Well, it didn't happen that weekend, and then after the recent ruined orgasm i kind of figured it might not happen at all. i kind of relaxed on that topic and mistakenly assumed that it was off the table for the time being.
Once Saturday came around this past weekend, i slowly picked up on some details that had me a little nervous. Goddess D made it pretty clear that i should be nervous, as the second part of the custom clip Princess Sheridan filmed for Goddess D was ready. The first part of the clip was for Goddess D's viewing only, giving Her instructions on how to treat me around the house, including subjects such as how to behave in public (always getting doors, walking behind Goddess, carrying Her bags, etc) as well as how She should treat me in the house (subbie meals, fetching things for Goddess, cleaning and anything else She could ever desire). i finally had a chance to see this clip, which also included a section where Princess addressed me directly about what was expected of me. As you could probably guess, Princess was extremely complimentary of Goddess D while pretty dismissive of me. It was definitely interesting to see the clip that communicated some early ideas to Goddess D, a great influence on how i've been treated by Goddess since.
Before we watched the second clip, Goddess D laid out some items on the bed. This included the paddle that had just arrived, a crop, and a glove. She started the clip on the big TV in our bedroom and it wasn't long before Princess Sheridan, looking extremely sexy as always in Her catsuit, was providing instructions for Goddess D on what She should do to me. Almost right away, i was laying down facing forward on the bed in chastity while i listened to Princess instruct Goddess to put on Her glove, lube up my ass and basically to get Her middle finger in there. Things got pretty real pretty fast. This clip ran over 10 minutes and for that entire duration, Goddess D was playing around in there, taking great delight in humiliating me in that manner. Meanwhile, i listened to Princess Sheridan tell me that this was what sex was going to be like from now on, that Goddess D doesn't need me to get Hers. Princess also expressed Her attraction for Goddess D while commenting on how the two of Them could use strap-ons on each other while basically discarding my pathetic self. i listened to all of this, for 10 minutes, laid out forward on the bed with a finger and eventually two fingers, in my ass. It's honestly embarrassing to even type these details. Princess also asked Goddess to spit in my mouth and in my face during the clip, and She gladly obliged. The physical abuse i endured was intense, but it's always the words that get to me the most in a situation like this. i get harder in my cage listening to Goddess D or Princess Sheridan reminding me of my hopeless chastity situation or degrading me in some other manner than anything else.
The clip ended with some words that were likely added as a late edit, as Princess had heard that the paddle arrived that day. Those words instructed Goddess D to go ahead and try out those new toys on me. i didn't really get any breaks. Instead i ended up with multiple whacks with this paddle from Goddess...
That thing may not look like much, but wow did it hurt. Goddess D wasn't even going that hard on me and each smack made my ass redder. By the time She got to whack #10 i was broken out in a sweat and hoping for it to stop. Goddess D had the cam running on this one and i forwarded the clip to Princess Sheridan later in the evening. She called me a pussy, and rightfully so as i could hardly take any of it without screaming. She did seem to love hearing Goddess D's laughter throughout though. i do believe that was the first time Princess Sheridan had a chance to see Goddess D in action, so that was kind of a special moment. :) Hopefully my screams didn't get in the way of it too much.
Prior to Saturday, i had never experienced any kind of anal play nor had i experienced much in the way of whipping or spanking. This will definitely serve as a deterrent should i step out of line in the future, as it was extremely painful to me despite the fact that i probably took a fraction of what many men can handle.
The more i've interacted with Goddess D over the last several days, the more i'm realizing just how very fucked i am. The whole thing is a complete mindfuck. She's merciless and She's enjoying it. She's not bullshitting me about it any more (She used to, back in the day). When She says she doesn't give a fuck about my orgasms She means it. When She says She wants to get off on my pain She means it. i generally read people very well and what i'm reading in Goddess D is scary. With the right push from Princess Sheridan, Goddess D has absolutely evolved into a sadist. She wants this without a doubt and that has turned my previous fantasies into what is now a reality. It's extremely sexy to me of course, but never in my life did i think i'd actually be in a position to be owned like this for real.
Even today, after being put back into my chastity cage, on a Monday night, Goddess chained me to the bed to fuck with me. She put on one of the bra and panties sets i bought Her on the shopping trip, pried my mouth open wide and dropped spit into it from way above multiple times. She buried my face in Her pussy and ass while my cock hopelessly pressed against its cage. About 45 minutes of the evening was just taken for purposes of torturing me, and She intends on making that a more regular occurrence. The few times She's tortured me this way when out of my cage, it has been nearly impossible to get me back in. And not because i'm hard, but simply because my balls are so swollen from it that it's difficult to get the ring around them.
Anyway, i don't need any more convincing. i know i'm pretty much in for it now and i have nobody to blame but myself. i've been all about exploring my fantasies for a long time and have been very open with Goddess D about those fantasies. i've definitely wanted to be sexually adventurous over the years in a variety of ways and we've certainly had our fair share of fun experiences. i always just figured we'd try something here, try something there, but nothing would really change in our day-to-day lives. Little did i know it at the time, but that all went out the window the day i decided to contact Princess Sheridan. i had no idea what i was stepping into and there is no escaping this tangled web now.
If following on along Twitter, i'm sure you've noticed more in the way of footage from some of our interactions taken by a low quality webcam, including some recent gifs. While these clips were taken more for the purposes of capturing screen shots and for our own personal viewing, some of them have been sexy enough that we may now be inspired to take it a step further. It sounds like Princess Sheridan has some interest in using some of our footage in Her clips based on what Goddess D has relayed to me. i have no idea the extent to which She'd want to do that but it of course would be an absolute honor.
We went ahead and ordered an HD webcam yesterday, so once that arrives we may be filming some more footage. Whatever gets filmed will pretty much be beyond my control. i consent to it of course but am not lying when i tell you that i'm extremely uneasy about the various ways i can look forward to being humiliated on video.
In a previous post i did mention the moment that Goddess D unexpectedly blasted a fart in my face with not a care in the world for my reaction and laughed about it. Well here's the exact moment it happened in a gif...
After Goddess D interacted with Yuri a bit about this on Twitter, and realizing that this spoke directly to one of his fetishes, Goddess shared the actual video clip with him. Yuri can correct me if i'm wrong of course but i do believe the clip received a rave review. :)
i really have no idea where this filming will go in the future but who knows, if the demand exists maybe we'll at some point get a little clip store set up and Goddess D could use any proceeds for whatever She desires. Probably nothing imminent though. We definitely can't show our faces and there would be a limited amount of interest. At the same time, Goddess doesn't really have any remorse for what She does to me so that could be a compensating factor!
i'm at over 80 days now without a pleasurable orgasm. i fully realize at this point that there's probably no way this will end at anything less than 100. i just can't help but wonder what the future holds. There isn't much indication that any mercy is imminent. It's so frustrating, yet so sexy.
Tuesday, February 9, 2016
Ruined Orgasm, Saran Wrap, Who Knows What's Next...
This past weekend was another eventful one with Goddess D. As you can see by the title, it actually involved a ruined orgasm, and one that was unexpected at that.
What led up to it really wasn't all that notable compared to what has been described in other posts. It was early on Saturday and we were just waking up. Goddess as She often does decided it was time to play and She cuffed me to the bed and took me out of my cage. She edges me often this way to get Herself off with the intention of denying me completely of course. The 70+ days denied and regular teasing and edging sessions with Goddess D, clips from Princess Sheridan and all of the other stimuli finally took a toll. While Goddess was edging me i felt myself getting really close much faster than normal. Goddess instructed me to warn Her to stop if i was getting too close, and i did. It didn't even matter. She stopped stroking me and it just still kept building until a mess just started pouring out uncontrollably.
In the past, Goddess would have probably been slightly amused and thought little of this. After all, this was completely uncontrollable no matter how much i tried to hold it in. It was in this moment that i realized just how far She has come as a Domme, because wow did She go off on me. This was no longer about me at all. It was about the fact that She was in a good rhythm and my worthless cock erupting distracted that rhythm. She had to stop what She was doing to keep it from getting on our sheets and didn't appreciate it at all, loudly calling me a pathetic piece of shit or something along those lines, and she caught me completely off guard by actually smacking me in the dick. This was not my wife of the past! Not long after this was all over i'm pretty sure that Goddess was proud of herself for the way She went off on me and messaged Princess Sheridan to tell Her all about it. i'm treated like nothing more than a toy to be used for their amusement at times. (A dream come true, clearly!)
After this happened, it got me thinking about how best to describe the counter posted on this site. i'm in chastity the majority of the time, but we all know i'm out of chastity often enough. i decided that in order to not be too misleading it made sense to change the counter from "days in chastity" to "days without pleasurable orgasm". That count has now reached 75 days and probably will continue for the foreseeable future. Honestly, a big part of me definitely misses being able to have real orgasms! i have all these clips and amazing experiences at this point and can do nothing about it! Yet, being controlled in this way never stops being hot as hell. Goddess D has suggested more than once getting to day 100, ruining an orgasm (and filming it) and starting over. But that's not really starting over! The fact that She would go so far as to even hint that 3 ruined orgasms and no real ones in a year would be a possible plan has me aching in frustration and arousal!
You'd think that would be enough for a day, but nope. We took a break so we could handle some real world tasks, and later that evening it was time for Goddess D to get out the saran wrap and basically turn me into a mummy and then do whatever She wanted with me. This was surprisingly effective. It's one thing to be tied or cuffed but in this position i was especially helpless...
Since this was the first time Goddess D had ever restrained me this way, She didn't keep me this way overnight or anything, although that was initially the plan. It's amazing how hot and uncomfortable it gets laying like this for a while. Eventually i'm sure i'll have to just deal with it as She won't always be so kind and She'll probably do much nastier things to me and leave me to think about it all night.
This time though, it was more of an opportunity for Goddess D to play it up for the webcam and to converse with Princess Sheridan. Once i was wrapped up, Princess wanted to work with Goddess D on her Domme skills. When reading sissy's blog not long ago i saw that Princess actually role played as a sub for sissy at one point in order to allow him some practice as a Domme. So after reading that i had a pretty good sense that She was about to try the same out with Goddess D. Goddess laid the laptop down on my chest and sat on my face while typing furiously to Princess Sheridan for quite a while. i just laid there the entire time with Goddess ass in my face while they had fun role playing Domme/sub with each other. As they were winding down in their discussion, Goddess just slugged me in the stomach out of nowhere. Oh, that was Princess Sheridan saying hello. Goddess D had no problem sending that message along to me.
For the next hour, Goddess facesat me, spit in my mouth multiple times, lightly trampled me and just did whatever She wished. She then got out the scissors and cut away some of the saran wrap so She could pull my chastised cock out and play with that. She couldn't have done that soon enough because it was getting crushed with the laptop a bit and just really needed some air. This isn't a pretty sight at all and we wisely kept these pics off Twitter as a result, but you can see just how red i was down there after Goddess pulled me up through the plastic.
Oh, and of course Goddess had to get Her vibrator ready. She gets so excited while torturing me. More so now than ever before. As Princess Sheridan said, the power is intoxicating and sure enough, Goddess D is very much embracing and enjoying being a Domme.
Goddess rode me a bit, edged me, had an orgasm Herself and pretty much gave me a facial with it when She was done. Once again, just used as a toy and discarded.
When this was all over, there was probably a solid hour of footage taken on webcam and the audio came out very well. Just listening back to all that Goddess D was saying throughout that experience was crazy to me. i just can't imagine She would have ever sounded this way in the past. Furthermore we have never filmed any kind of bedroom interaction. i'm biased of course but this was honestly pretty damn hot!
One other recent development is that Princess Sheridan has provided me with a link to purchase a variety of whips, paddles, etc, and has informed me that Goddess D will be marking Her property. i submitted the order yesterday. i'm not sure if this was always in the plans or the result of anything specific i did to deserve it, but either way i'm kind of petrified on this one. This is one of those things i've never been really into but at the same time it doesn't cross a hard boundary for me. So i guess i'm just going to have to take it. i want to please Princess Sheridan and Goddess D of course and it's always an honor to submit to them.
What led up to it really wasn't all that notable compared to what has been described in other posts. It was early on Saturday and we were just waking up. Goddess as She often does decided it was time to play and She cuffed me to the bed and took me out of my cage. She edges me often this way to get Herself off with the intention of denying me completely of course. The 70+ days denied and regular teasing and edging sessions with Goddess D, clips from Princess Sheridan and all of the other stimuli finally took a toll. While Goddess was edging me i felt myself getting really close much faster than normal. Goddess instructed me to warn Her to stop if i was getting too close, and i did. It didn't even matter. She stopped stroking me and it just still kept building until a mess just started pouring out uncontrollably.
In the past, Goddess would have probably been slightly amused and thought little of this. After all, this was completely uncontrollable no matter how much i tried to hold it in. It was in this moment that i realized just how far She has come as a Domme, because wow did She go off on me. This was no longer about me at all. It was about the fact that She was in a good rhythm and my worthless cock erupting distracted that rhythm. She had to stop what She was doing to keep it from getting on our sheets and didn't appreciate it at all, loudly calling me a pathetic piece of shit or something along those lines, and she caught me completely off guard by actually smacking me in the dick. This was not my wife of the past! Not long after this was all over i'm pretty sure that Goddess was proud of herself for the way She went off on me and messaged Princess Sheridan to tell Her all about it. i'm treated like nothing more than a toy to be used for their amusement at times. (A dream come true, clearly!)
After this happened, it got me thinking about how best to describe the counter posted on this site. i'm in chastity the majority of the time, but we all know i'm out of chastity often enough. i decided that in order to not be too misleading it made sense to change the counter from "days in chastity" to "days without pleasurable orgasm". That count has now reached 75 days and probably will continue for the foreseeable future. Honestly, a big part of me definitely misses being able to have real orgasms! i have all these clips and amazing experiences at this point and can do nothing about it! Yet, being controlled in this way never stops being hot as hell. Goddess D has suggested more than once getting to day 100, ruining an orgasm (and filming it) and starting over. But that's not really starting over! The fact that She would go so far as to even hint that 3 ruined orgasms and no real ones in a year would be a possible plan has me aching in frustration and arousal!
You'd think that would be enough for a day, but nope. We took a break so we could handle some real world tasks, and later that evening it was time for Goddess D to get out the saran wrap and basically turn me into a mummy and then do whatever She wanted with me. This was surprisingly effective. It's one thing to be tied or cuffed but in this position i was especially helpless...
Since this was the first time Goddess D had ever restrained me this way, She didn't keep me this way overnight or anything, although that was initially the plan. It's amazing how hot and uncomfortable it gets laying like this for a while. Eventually i'm sure i'll have to just deal with it as She won't always be so kind and She'll probably do much nastier things to me and leave me to think about it all night.
This time though, it was more of an opportunity for Goddess D to play it up for the webcam and to converse with Princess Sheridan. Once i was wrapped up, Princess wanted to work with Goddess D on her Domme skills. When reading sissy's blog not long ago i saw that Princess actually role played as a sub for sissy at one point in order to allow him some practice as a Domme. So after reading that i had a pretty good sense that She was about to try the same out with Goddess D. Goddess laid the laptop down on my chest and sat on my face while typing furiously to Princess Sheridan for quite a while. i just laid there the entire time with Goddess ass in my face while they had fun role playing Domme/sub with each other. As they were winding down in their discussion, Goddess just slugged me in the stomach out of nowhere. Oh, that was Princess Sheridan saying hello. Goddess D had no problem sending that message along to me.
For the next hour, Goddess facesat me, spit in my mouth multiple times, lightly trampled me and just did whatever She wished. She then got out the scissors and cut away some of the saran wrap so She could pull my chastised cock out and play with that. She couldn't have done that soon enough because it was getting crushed with the laptop a bit and just really needed some air. This isn't a pretty sight at all and we wisely kept these pics off Twitter as a result, but you can see just how red i was down there after Goddess pulled me up through the plastic.
Oh, and of course Goddess had to get Her vibrator ready. She gets so excited while torturing me. More so now than ever before. As Princess Sheridan said, the power is intoxicating and sure enough, Goddess D is very much embracing and enjoying being a Domme.
Goddess rode me a bit, edged me, had an orgasm Herself and pretty much gave me a facial with it when She was done. Once again, just used as a toy and discarded.
One other recent development is that Princess Sheridan has provided me with a link to purchase a variety of whips, paddles, etc, and has informed me that Goddess D will be marking Her property. i submitted the order yesterday. i'm not sure if this was always in the plans or the result of anything specific i did to deserve it, but either way i'm kind of petrified on this one. This is one of those things i've never been really into but at the same time it doesn't cross a hard boundary for me. So i guess i'm just going to have to take it. i want to please Princess Sheridan and Goddess D of course and it's always an honor to submit to them.
i'm still very much adjusting to being a 24/7 sub. There are times that i worry i don't have all of the subbie qualities that Princess expects and even candidly admitted as much to Goddess D during a very open and honest conversation about all of the wonderful craziness that has been happening lately. The funny thing is i must have phrased my concerns poorly because Goddess D may have taken it as if i was considering quitting or something, which was NEVER the case. The beauty of it was Goddess' reaction though. She just basically said no, we're not quitting. She likes this too much is having too much fun and seems 100% determined to continue on. That's both amazing to me and scary at the same time. Three months ago, in my wildest dreams i couldn't have imagined a case where i would the one expressing concerns about being dominated while my Wife was the one all gung ho about it and wanting more!
Everything about this has been a welcome challenge. And believe me it is a challenge at times. One thing that i never anticipated would be all the different ways that Princess would challenge me to put Goddess D first and to consider Her needs at all times. i firmly believe we've had one of the healthiest and most well respected marriages around before this even started, and yet these experiences are bringing us even closer every day. Who knew that femdom could be so powerful on that level? Well, it's not just femdom on its own. It's also Princess Sheridan, a one-of-a-kind Domme who dove head first into the complexity of getting involved with a married couple on this level. i don't think most Dommes would even be willing to take the chance of getting intertwined in all of the swirling feelings and emotions within a marriage and this super intense subject matter. Not only was She willing, but She was looking for such an opportunity.
i'll fearfully be keeping an eye out for what comes in the mail. Can't say i'd be too disappointed if those shipments don't arrive until next week. :)
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