More than a week ago Goddess D after speaking with Princess Sheridan asked me a few questions about my limits. One of those questions related to the idea of a prostate milking and basically, whether or not that was a hard limit for me. That question kind of froze me. Using the scale i presented before where 1 = no way and 10 = exciting to the max, this idea registered about a 2. When i see stuff on the internet involving a guy in chastity being forced into ruined orgasms that way, or even getting pegged, there's definitely a part of me that sees the appeal strictly due to the level of control the Domme has and his helpless predicament. It's certainly a humiliating act. Yet, i've never had any kind of real desire to experience that myself. Around the time Goddess first asked, She didn't really care all that much if it was something i wanted. She just wanted to know if i would give my consent. i reluctantly did as generally i'm willing to do anything i can for Goddess D and Princess Sheridan if it makes Them happy and i think i can handle it. Goddess had me under the impression it was going to happen soon. Well, it didn't happen that weekend, and then after the recent ruined orgasm i kind of figured it might not happen at all. i kind of relaxed on that topic and mistakenly assumed that it was off the table for the time being.
Once Saturday came around this past weekend, i slowly picked up on some details that had me a little nervous. Goddess D made it pretty clear that i should be nervous, as the second part of the custom clip Princess Sheridan filmed for Goddess D was ready. The first part of the clip was for Goddess D's viewing only, giving Her instructions on how to treat me around the house, including subjects such as how to behave in public (always getting doors, walking behind Goddess, carrying Her bags, etc) as well as how She should treat me in the house (subbie meals, fetching things for Goddess, cleaning and anything else She could ever desire). i finally had a chance to see this clip, which also included a section where Princess addressed me directly about what was expected of me. As you could probably guess, Princess was extremely complimentary of Goddess D while pretty dismissive of me. It was definitely interesting to see the clip that communicated some early ideas to Goddess D, a great influence on how i've been treated by Goddess since.
Before we watched the second clip, Goddess D laid out some items on the bed. This included the paddle that had just arrived, a crop, and a glove. She started the clip on the big TV in our bedroom and it wasn't long before Princess Sheridan, looking extremely sexy as always in Her catsuit, was providing instructions for Goddess D on what She should do to me. Almost right away, i was laying down facing forward on the bed in chastity while i listened to Princess instruct Goddess to put on Her glove, lube up my ass and basically to get Her middle finger in there. Things got pretty real pretty fast. This clip ran over 10 minutes and for that entire duration, Goddess D was playing around in there, taking great delight in humiliating me in that manner. Meanwhile, i listened to Princess Sheridan tell me that this was what sex was going to be like from now on, that Goddess D doesn't need me to get Hers. Princess also expressed Her attraction for Goddess D while commenting on how the two of Them could use strap-ons on each other while basically discarding my pathetic self. i listened to all of this, for 10 minutes, laid out forward on the bed with a finger and eventually two fingers, in my ass. It's honestly embarrassing to even type these details. Princess also asked Goddess to spit in my mouth and in my face during the clip, and She gladly obliged. The physical abuse i endured was intense, but it's always the words that get to me the most in a situation like this. i get harder in my cage listening to Goddess D or Princess Sheridan reminding me of my hopeless chastity situation or degrading me in some other manner than anything else.
The clip ended with some words that were likely added as a late edit, as Princess had heard that the paddle arrived that day. Those words instructed Goddess D to go ahead and try out those new toys on me. i didn't really get any breaks. Instead i ended up with multiple whacks with this paddle from Goddess...
That thing may not look like much, but wow did it hurt. Goddess D wasn't even going that hard on me and each smack made my ass redder. By the time She got to whack #10 i was broken out in a sweat and hoping for it to stop. Goddess D had the cam running on this one and i forwarded the clip to Princess Sheridan later in the evening. She called me a pussy, and rightfully so as i could hardly take any of it without screaming. She did seem to love hearing Goddess D's laughter throughout though. i do believe that was the first time Princess Sheridan had a chance to see Goddess D in action, so that was kind of a special moment. :) Hopefully my screams didn't get in the way of it too much.
Prior to Saturday, i had never experienced any kind of anal play nor had i experienced much in the way of whipping or spanking. This will definitely serve as a deterrent should i step out of line in the future, as it was extremely painful to me despite the fact that i probably took a fraction of what many men can handle.
The more i've interacted with Goddess D over the last several days, the more i'm realizing just how very fucked i am. The whole thing is a complete mindfuck. She's merciless and She's enjoying it. She's not bullshitting me about it any more (She used to, back in the day). When She says she doesn't give a fuck about my orgasms She means it. When She says She wants to get off on my pain She means it. i generally read people very well and what i'm reading in Goddess D is scary. With the right push from Princess Sheridan, Goddess D has absolutely evolved into a sadist. She wants this without a doubt and that has turned my previous fantasies into what is now a reality. It's extremely sexy to me of course, but never in my life did i think i'd actually be in a position to be owned like this for real.
Even today, after being put back into my chastity cage, on a Monday night, Goddess chained me to the bed to fuck with me. She put on one of the bra and panties sets i bought Her on the shopping trip, pried my mouth open wide and dropped spit into it from way above multiple times. She buried my face in Her pussy and ass while my cock hopelessly pressed against its cage. About 45 minutes of the evening was just taken for purposes of torturing me, and She intends on making that a more regular occurrence. The few times She's tortured me this way when out of my cage, it has been nearly impossible to get me back in. And not because i'm hard, but simply because my balls are so swollen from it that it's difficult to get the ring around them.
Anyway, i don't need any more convincing. i know i'm pretty much in for it now and i have nobody to blame but myself. i've been all about exploring my fantasies for a long time and have been very open with Goddess D about those fantasies. i've definitely wanted to be sexually adventurous over the years in a variety of ways and we've certainly had our fair share of fun experiences. i always just figured we'd try something here, try something there, but nothing would really change in our day-to-day lives. Little did i know it at the time, but that all went out the window the day i decided to contact Princess Sheridan. i had no idea what i was stepping into and there is no escaping this tangled web now.
If following on along Twitter, i'm sure you've noticed more in the way of footage from some of our interactions taken by a low quality webcam, including some recent gifs. While these clips were taken more for the purposes of capturing screen shots and for our own personal viewing, some of them have been sexy enough that we may now be inspired to take it a step further. It sounds like Princess Sheridan has some interest in using some of our footage in Her clips based on what Goddess D has relayed to me. i have no idea the extent to which She'd want to do that but it of course would be an absolute honor.
We went ahead and ordered an HD webcam yesterday, so once that arrives we may be filming some more footage. Whatever gets filmed will pretty much be beyond my control. i consent to it of course but am not lying when i tell you that i'm extremely uneasy about the various ways i can look forward to being humiliated on video.
In a previous post i did mention the moment that Goddess D unexpectedly blasted a fart in my face with not a care in the world for my reaction and laughed about it. Well here's the exact moment it happened in a gif...
After Goddess D interacted with Yuri a bit about this on Twitter, and realizing that this spoke directly to one of his fetishes, Goddess shared the actual video clip with him. Yuri can correct me if i'm wrong of course but i do believe the clip received a rave review. :)
i really have no idea where this filming will go in the future but who knows, if the demand exists maybe we'll at some point get a little clip store set up and Goddess D could use any proceeds for whatever She desires. Probably nothing imminent though. We definitely can't show our faces and there would be a limited amount of interest. At the same time, Goddess doesn't really have any remorse for what She does to me so that could be a compensating factor!
i'm at over 80 days now without a pleasurable orgasm. i fully realize at this point that there's probably no way this will end at anything less than 100. i just can't help but wonder what the future holds. There isn't much indication that any mercy is imminent. It's so frustrating, yet so sexy.
No correction needed. That video was beyond exciting to watch, must have been overwhelming to experience!
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